yeah, so it's been a while since I blogged last. I don't really have much to say. God's pulling me through the wringer right now. I'm trying my hardest to learn the 1st time so I'm not ever here again, but I feel like I'm out of practice. I don't spend much time with God. Not like I used to. I kind of have this mindset that I'm livin' aren't I... I'm a missionary. I have BASE MEETING- or worship with the School, but it is all still work to me. I'm punching in and punching out. I'm realizing more that I need a place away from YWAM- separate from YWAM for me to get spritually fed. I remember before my DTS I was involved in several different things that were separate from "work" and that is where I thrived. I learned so much and I grew. I PURSUED GOD. Which is something that I do-NOT do these days. I don't feel like I have truely heard God's voice in my life since my DTS. or maybe when I was praying about dating Evan. This is a really hard place to be. I get on automatic mode, and rely on myself or friends or my husband to hear for me.
but I don't know how to change. It needs to be about me wanting it and pursueing it. Others can't really spur me to do it.
so needless to say- could use a shout out to God... I'm really fine. but could be a whole lot better.
thanks